Thursday, July 16, 2009
seconds of internal painfuck man
was on the phone with leslie
and he got veh curious abt that jackass
so wanting to act brave
i went to his page
saw the pictures
and then quite alot of the past
flowed through me
F
i SHOULDNT HAD CLICKED IT
im suppose to go for a 1 hr session of L4D
i dont feel like going alr
but maybe i should
i should freaking imagine that jackass's face
on the zombies then i shoot them until they die
okay its veh sick i know
so im not gonna do that
im gonna stay calm
finish up my work
and continue staying positive
becuz i can do it
yup
i should be able to
i think
i have tuition tonight
and am burning midnight oil
cuz im passing up my coursework by tmr
i was hyped for the L4D session
but now im fucking unhappy
becuz i caused it myself
and i cant turn to coke or ice cream
badbadbad
nehmind i should be happy
without a jackass in my life
i can do more things and better stuff
soccer after Ns
my life will be better
krazy shopping by then
i'll turn girl-lier
unstoppable skate sessions
for a rush of the wind
Ns
it be here and gone
before i know it
so will the wait for release of the clique
turn shorter
Labels: i can do it
4:39 PM