lights out



i finished my coursework last night
at 1.30
instead of the expected zonking out
my insonmia attacked me till 3


woke up today
real screwed
was late
wanted to cab but in the end didnt
saw someone on the bus
screwed hair
screwed day in sch


hie teacher
this post is specially for you

thanks for being nice to me for the half of this year
i realised i could do maths
thanks for teaching me when i needed help
i found out hey first time im able to do maths
and im actually willing to try

thanks for scolding me today
the whole class when quiet when you shouted
thanks for making me feel so embarassed
thanks for letting the whole class witness the scolding
thanks for shouting at me
and for those words you said
they were attached with blades

and i felt humilated
i had the tears of fury
but i pushed them back
i wanted to dig a hole and hide badly

teacher, thanks
you killed my interest of maths

teacher did you only went to read the files last night?
counted every single black record of mine?
read them as a bedtime story?
or you chose not to believe what i am like in sch anymore?
havent i been a good kid?
i havent got into any trouble this year
with studies nor with teachers

im not the worst student in class
there were fucking 2 idiots beside me
speaking in hokkien
and one of them always pon sch

thanks teacher
and thank you fr
i doubt i be sitting beside you anymore
and dont call out to me anymore
i dont wanna listen to your never ending stories

and i cabbed home
i spaced out
leslie's working with kazzie
they told me to be strong
hell yes i will

and im going to show you teacher
im no nobody


i had a really bad day today

its roy's birthday tmr
i hope you have a great day brudder


i need a better day tmr

im stopping alcohol for awhile
i can return to my swinging in the park
i believe i'll feel better
alcohol adds on to the emotions each time


god bring me a biker boyfr
i wanna sit on his bike and feel the wind
cutting my wrist


a better tmr please

11:01 PM

lights out



i finished my coursework last night
at 1.30
instead of the expected zonking out
my insonmia attacked me till 3


woke up today
real screwed
was late
wanted to cab but in the end didnt
saw someone on the bus
screwed hair
screwed day in sch


hie teacher
this post is specially for you

thanks for being nice to me for the half of this year
i realised i could do maths
thanks for teaching me when i needed help
i found out hey first time im able to do maths
and im actually willing to try

thanks for scolding me today
the whole class when quiet when you shouted
thanks for making me feel so embarassed
thanks for letting the whole class witness the scolding
thanks for shouting at me
and for those words you said
they were attached with blades

and i felt humilated
i had the tears of fury
but i pushed them back
i wanted to dig a hole and hide badly

teacher, thanks
you killed my interest of maths

teacher did you only went to read the files last night?
counted every single black record of mine?
read them as a bedtime story?
or you chose not to believe what i am like in sch anymore?
havent i been a good kid?
i havent got into any trouble this year
with studies nor with teachers

im not the worst student in class
there were fucking 2 idiots beside me
speaking in hokkien
and one of them always pon sch

thanks teacher
and thank you fr
i doubt i be sitting beside you anymore
and dont call out to me anymore
i dont wanna listen to your never ending stories

and i cabbed home
i spaced out
leslie's working with kazzie
they told me to be strong
hell yes i will

and im going to show you teacher
im no nobody


i had a really bad day today

its roy's birthday tmr
i hope you have a great day brudder


i need a better day tmr

im stopping alcohol for awhile
i can return to my swinging in the park
i believe i'll feel better
alcohol adds on to the emotions each time


god bring me a biker boyfr
i wanna sit on his bike and feel the wind
cutting my wrist


a better tmr please

11:01 PM
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