Saturday, July 18, 2009
liarsi zonk out again last night
insonmia didnt even have a chance at me
i loved it
i didnt have to think before i pass out
it was total black once eyes are closed
i woke up late
rushed to school
only noticed my hair was not tied on the way
urghh no small rubber band only a big one
did compo and letter writing
walked to macs myself after that
i swear i look shuper pathetic
when i was eating at queenstown bus stop
while waiting for the king to come
seriously leslie took almost half an hour man
and i rewarded him my frown
he brought me the money kazzie owed me
and bused home with me
i complaint alot to him
and almost cried cuz i was over emotional
i feel so alone
when im alone
i dont feel this way in the past
becuz i dont have them now
kazzie joel said i grew prettier
whats the point
i dont have the clique to dress me better
i have a what do you even call that
long distance relationship not?
i dont even know my status
single or not available
for shit man
i might as well be only pretty on the inside
im desperate for the clique's release
and i kinda made a pact to myself
that i be staying positive and smiling as much as i can
which everybody knows i dont smile much
and so what if i look nicer when i smile
i rehlly dont feel happy today
i feel like drinking
i havent touched a drop of vodka for awhile
its time for another puddle
tonight
dinner with relatives
a bbq
to down it all down
so why dont you answer me
are you my
BOYFR
or
BESTFR
Labels: join me, saddists of the world
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