Tuesday, July 14, 2009
in painim effing in pain
physically and emotionally
i cut my finger again
and my heart is on fire
english oral today
2 male teachers
who look more like P.E teachers
they laughed and kept smiling
its veh disturbing
becuz they were not very thin
so look abit like spasm
esp when one of them eyed me
cuz i ran out of words for a sec at the picture
came home
grab the board and skated to greatworld
went to get jie's B_______
^^
freaking spent an hour there deciding which one to get
went to buy subway cookies
tied the balloon around my neck
for safety cuz i scared burst
and skated back
pa said this
you siao put behind, any joggers could had straggled you
and you wouldnt even know how you died
haha veh funny
-.-
and i tried to sit down to study but i
CANT
arghhh what the hiao is wrong with me man
my mind WANTS to study
but when i hold the pen
im doodling or writing crap
and i feel like an idiot
i told rini and andi
greatworld's the best place to go dating
cuz its quiet and there are fun shops to visit
and if i have a boyfr
i will bring him there and have a great time tgt
becuz the last time i went there
with an old boyfr
i cried there
and lex im never gonna let it all end
i didnt know what to say
what words could fill the silence
i swear
aching waves were rolling through me
until at last i hanged up
we are so not going to have such a fight again
not anymore
best buds dont fight over stupid things
alright
im still walking down the path
on my very own
and just to be known
im fine
and
im good
becuz
michie, you can do it
Labels: lived through the horror
10:15 PM