today was pathetic
i went to sch with goldfish eyes
cuz lex called last night
i practically cried my heart out
and i rubbed my eyes so bad
the skin below my eyes got grazed

school was alright
bused home with hazil
as usual we gossiped all the way(:
she's a reh nice girl

and i rot at home
i studied and read a book
at 5.30 i pulled out my blades
which have been collecting dust since i got a new skateboard
as usual blading suits me the best still
i cant figured why i switched to board

i sped in 7 mins time to tiong
bought a vanilla cone
and sat outside watching the cars go
everyone who passed me
most probably thought im some insane girl
i ate my ice cream and frowned at everyone who stared

then as i stood up to throw my cone
2 guys called out to me
and i thought who are they
why did they know my name
and finally i rmb they were tes's frens
and i was retarded enough to mumble
they invited me into tiong but i couldnt
i was in my skates -.-

so we went macs
they were so weird
i bought a drink
and the other one pointed me to meet them outside
and when i reached the door
i saw them with 2 lians
me with no damn backbone waved and went off

i laughed to myself
how pathetic i seemed
when they asked why im there
and why im alone

i went to the park for a swing
told the little boy if he could lend me for 5mins
skated off and bumped into brandon and basil
how surprising
i keep bumping into ppl
and they kept asking why am i alone
what am i doing there

maybe i shld give jeremy a call
tell him i need to tattoo "LONER" on my forehead
or carry a signboard around that reads
"im alone, stop asking me who im here with"
isnt the sight of me alone makes it obvious i am ALONE?

i know im some no life loser with no friends
but i didnt shut myself in
i went out
on my own
and i survived

and when i reached the end of the canal
there were a clique of boys there
i turned away instantly
and one called my name
not again
another grp who knew me when i didnt knew them

turned out to be jerome's friends
the ones in the arcade
how coincidentally man
and he had the cheek to ask again
who im there with
i gave him my frown
and was about to skate off
when he answered
you look nicer in the arcade when you smiled

thanks i dont really need your instructions
i'll smile when i feel like it
the most
not to you
so what if you have braces
i dont like haughty guys

i miss my clique
i miss them alot

im ranting longer and longer in my post nowadays

and ilex actually likes my blog
lols im surprised ppl gets entertained with my crap

madi said i looked pretty in andri's party
she saw the pics before i did
duh smothered with make up
every girl sure looks pretty

i felt un-natural in it though
make up just dont seems like the real me

i have a movie outing this sat with ks and his frs
how nice they want me to take them as a clique
truly appreciate their kindess

afterall im getting used
going out on my own
i dont care if ppl thinks im insane
i'll prove it
going out on my own is possible

i'll just try not to cry
when i think of them
my used to be clique

10:57 PM

today was pathetic
i went to sch with goldfish eyes
cuz lex called last night
i practically cried my heart out
and i rubbed my eyes so bad
the skin below my eyes got grazed

school was alright
bused home with hazil
as usual we gossiped all the way(:
she's a reh nice girl

and i rot at home
i studied and read a book
at 5.30 i pulled out my blades
which have been collecting dust since i got a new skateboard
as usual blading suits me the best still
i cant figured why i switched to board

i sped in 7 mins time to tiong
bought a vanilla cone
and sat outside watching the cars go
everyone who passed me
most probably thought im some insane girl
i ate my ice cream and frowned at everyone who stared

then as i stood up to throw my cone
2 guys called out to me
and i thought who are they
why did they know my name
and finally i rmb they were tes's frens
and i was retarded enough to mumble
they invited me into tiong but i couldnt
i was in my skates -.-

so we went macs
they were so weird
i bought a drink
and the other one pointed me to meet them outside
and when i reached the door
i saw them with 2 lians
me with no damn backbone waved and went off

i laughed to myself
how pathetic i seemed
when they asked why im there
and why im alone

i went to the park for a swing
told the little boy if he could lend me for 5mins
skated off and bumped into brandon and basil
how surprising
i keep bumping into ppl
and they kept asking why am i alone
what am i doing there

maybe i shld give jeremy a call
tell him i need to tattoo "LONER" on my forehead
or carry a signboard around that reads
"im alone, stop asking me who im here with"
isnt the sight of me alone makes it obvious i am ALONE?

i know im some no life loser with no friends
but i didnt shut myself in
i went out
on my own
and i survived

and when i reached the end of the canal
there were a clique of boys there
i turned away instantly
and one called my name
not again
another grp who knew me when i didnt knew them

turned out to be jerome's friends
the ones in the arcade
how coincidentally man
and he had the cheek to ask again
who im there with
i gave him my frown
and was about to skate off
when he answered
you look nicer in the arcade when you smiled

thanks i dont really need your instructions
i'll smile when i feel like it
the most
not to you
so what if you have braces
i dont like haughty guys

i miss my clique
i miss them alot

im ranting longer and longer in my post nowadays

and ilex actually likes my blog
lols im surprised ppl gets entertained with my crap

madi said i looked pretty in andri's party
she saw the pics before i did
duh smothered with make up
every girl sure looks pretty

i felt un-natural in it though
make up just dont seems like the real me

i have a movie outing this sat with ks and his frs
how nice they want me to take them as a clique
truly appreciate their kindess

afterall im getting used
going out on my own
i dont care if ppl thinks im insane
i'll prove it
going out on my own is possible

i'll just try not to cry
when i think of them
my used to be clique

10:57 PM
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