Saturday, June 13, 2009
reached the meeting place earliest again
so much that im ALWAYS the earliest one
they are alwaays LATE
so i have to fucking wait
went to cine for lunch
got to know some of monsie's frs
went to the park later to watch the competition
was super reluctant to
i didnt want to even bump into anyone of *them
it rained so we hurried off the esplanade
monsie's new grp of frs were there
then we went to the memorial area to skate
while skating to buy drinks on my own
i fell
and got laughed at
but i stood up and skated back
i felt like crap
they were totally unappreciative
andri and priya left early
so much for assuring they staying out with us
great.
was about to go off to watch the gig later
they dared me to ask the emo dude's number
so i went
and got myself looked like a clown
couldnt be bothered so i said forget bout it
went to waterfront
nurul cried
and we sat there
fucked up i went off to the slope to skate
went back to plaza sing after that
had dinner then went down
hoping i could drum
but some stupid guy inserted 3 credits
they had to go then
i went to take bus alone
went past spize
all those cliques i saw
i felt like fuck on the bus
so much for staying out
staying out= 10 pm?
chester i miss you guys
we use to stay out for wild times sake
and you lost weight when i saw you today
i miss you so much
whats the point of going home early
and none of them can stay out
not mentioning kazzie or his frs
fuck totally
so i wander on my own after 10
and i reached home
mummy screamed
mel told on me bout ystd
im never ever bringing her out again
she screamed at me
when its like 10 plus at night
she doesnt want me to skate anymore
she dont want to see me hanging around strangers
fuck all the people in my family
with shortgun marriages
underage pregnancies
i had to undergo the pressure of not becoming like them
becuz of them
mummy is preaching me forever always
and i want to drink so badly now
i had to cry with my back facing them
its tears of anger
ystd was fucked up
today too
i cant look forward to a better tomorrow
not when everyday just gets worse
they shine so brightly
even when they'r not metals
i dont even glisten with them around
my blog's like 90% saddistic
cant figure why it can entertain ppl even
fuck my life
to hell with my pride
cuz
im gonna cry tonight
Labels: im tired of pretending im happy
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