Tuesday, June 9, 2009
last night was terrible
i couldnt sleep
lying awake till 3 before i dozed off
i left my phone under my bed
i knew there wouldnt be calls
or a need to text
i can survive
came school
slacking in com lab
went for a break dwnstairs with babes
eating half way till nad said
" you know i saw them holding hands"
i was lost for words
i lost my appetitite
i lost my mind
i told nad nicely
i dont really wish to know
so isit ohkay if the next time she keeps shush
she said okay in the end
the sarcarsm of some
the supporting of others
and whats left of me
i really shouldnt be feeling this
i shouldnt even look away when you'r mentioned
im supposed to join in the talk
and poke fun of how we used to be
instead i couldnt even withstand till they finished
i just had to walk away
seriously you guys
if you'r gonna help me get over him
the most you guys could do is erm
the best solution to me is
just leave the topic of him alone
dont bring it up even
i cant be blamed
a first real love
cant be forgotten easily
isnt it
and im very sure
no matter how much
i wanna hook up with a guy to spite you
i wouldnt.
becuz im not a bitch in situations of such
i'll just walk and look ahead
you be the one turning around
oh well im gonna skate later
gonna get the haze outta my mind
get some ice cream at tiong
repeat my previous trip there
told kazzie i be MIA-ing with them for awhile
leslie was agitated but after much explanation
he understood, he's a reh nice dude
friends last longer together
you know
there's a girl around me
she doesnt realise
but we, the bystanders do
gotta figure a way to help her out
lex is coming back
and i dont care if you'r reading this
i sacrificed alot cuz i know you'r coming back okay
i cancelled my outings and chalet for the whole week
just for you
you'r my last bestfr
and here's my rants again
selfish.
very selfish to leave me on my own out here
who told me i didnt need to face the world myself
who promised to be there always
who promised that he will stand by me
but left without very much an earlier notice
chester tan
you'r my best fr
how could you
would you even bear to see me in this state if you could
i need you
there's no one i can go to like you
there's so much to tell you
and we only have half an hour tmr at visiting
how little time it is
i miss you, bestfr
i shld fall into a pool of acid
kill all the guards with superpowers
and save you from the hostel
shall study this whole week
gig on saturday
and bal class teaching starts sunday
everyday 4 hours for a week
then i'll be awaiting for lex's return
will be losing some fun for the sake of studies
pretty much no time left
but i wouldnt rule out the
ICECREAM TREATS OUTING
cuz i have 5 on my list already
i need a new life
Labels: buy me one
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