its gonna be a long post
its all my rants
i doubt anyone will finish reading
before clicking the sweetly X up there

hits the pedal, snare and cymbal 10 times
thats the own drumroll i have to beat
rolls out the dusty red carpet
thats the path i have to unroll weakly
steps out onto that square of cement
thats where and when
i welcome back myself
to
nobody.
lastly clap for myself
i pulled through the turmoil of it all


coming of almost one week of being sick
yes terrible sick
down with seem like what so ever kind of virus
and a tampered voicebox now
i barely am myself entirely still
but i can hardly wait anymore
i forced myself to stand up again


dont be surprised
i still cant stand or walk for too long
i'll feel alil faint
my lungs will give up on the coughing


this is karma
or punishment
for harming your own body
and yes michie very well learnt her lesson
she will therefore promise again
yes, again
she will cut down on drinking
really


to everyone who cared
or anyone out there even
thanks:)

of course there's loving ppl like mummy
kazzie and his grp of friends
thanks for running to my aid though i didnt faint:)
and my sch babes for showing concern

the rest very well
i have no comments
utter disapointment in certain
shall not mention names
but guess what


I LOST IT ALL


im laughing now
maybe this is what they call
insanity
after you lose something you find important

maybe i didnt lose it all
but it seemed like

i wonder how im gonna lead this june hols
what a joke
imagine ppl asking

Michie where's the INC clique
and i answer
oh they'r all locked behind jail

and if they ask then who are you with now
and i answer
myself.

isnt that the cherry on top of the cake
independence it shall be

tmr is the results of exams
im really meeting death
and i have 2 days of MC
or i could try something stupid
like escaping school
but who to go to
where to go to
thats reality
shot at me

pathetic isnt it
now i rather be sick longer
knowing there's no one
whose gonna really be there when im well


im suppose to think positive really
but all of this is turning negatively


to the little lying bitch/leech
bitching bout me when im not around?
oh no i wouldnt bitch bout you
that be quivalent to your low status
i'd WAIT for you to be bitched about:)
doing nothing is the sweetest payback?


the medicine's making me taste things bitter
and im waking up my senses
things are changing


i'll be fine
i HAVE to be fine
wouldnt and aint gonna be pulled down
no matter how hard it is
i never hide my tears
its not shameful to let out emotions

keeping it in is worse than letting it out


michie, you can do it


screw love
you got all the examples around you
wait for a guy?
oh he will never come
its better off
occupied with other stuff
he will come unexpectedly

afterall feb's shown another example
that guy was after sex
jerk


and i know its so canny
i hear and see his name everywhere still
but i merely laugh at his name
to think i'd cry the moment i think of him
and what a concidence
today's 3 months after the whole turmoil
not that i keep track
but i just check the date after mentioning bout him
and found out


Michie still wants to be wild
but just a lil cut down on it
:/



i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes till i touch the sky
make a wish, take a chance
and break away
out of the darkness and into the sun
but i wouldnt forget the ones that i loved
i'll take a risk, take a chance
make a change and break away

10:06 PM

its gonna be a long post
its all my rants
i doubt anyone will finish reading
before clicking the sweetly X up there

hits the pedal, snare and cymbal 10 times
thats the own drumroll i have to beat
rolls out the dusty red carpet
thats the path i have to unroll weakly
steps out onto that square of cement
thats where and when
i welcome back myself
to
nobody.
lastly clap for myself
i pulled through the turmoil of it all


coming of almost one week of being sick
yes terrible sick
down with seem like what so ever kind of virus
and a tampered voicebox now
i barely am myself entirely still
but i can hardly wait anymore
i forced myself to stand up again


dont be surprised
i still cant stand or walk for too long
i'll feel alil faint
my lungs will give up on the coughing


this is karma
or punishment
for harming your own body
and yes michie very well learnt her lesson
she will therefore promise again
yes, again
she will cut down on drinking
really


to everyone who cared
or anyone out there even
thanks:)

of course there's loving ppl like mummy
kazzie and his grp of friends
thanks for running to my aid though i didnt faint:)
and my sch babes for showing concern

the rest very well
i have no comments
utter disapointment in certain
shall not mention names
but guess what


I LOST IT ALL


im laughing now
maybe this is what they call
insanity
after you lose something you find important

maybe i didnt lose it all
but it seemed like

i wonder how im gonna lead this june hols
what a joke
imagine ppl asking

Michie where's the INC clique
and i answer
oh they'r all locked behind jail

and if they ask then who are you with now
and i answer
myself.

isnt that the cherry on top of the cake
independence it shall be

tmr is the results of exams
im really meeting death
and i have 2 days of MC
or i could try something stupid
like escaping school
but who to go to
where to go to
thats reality
shot at me

pathetic isnt it
now i rather be sick longer
knowing there's no one
whose gonna really be there when im well


im suppose to think positive really
but all of this is turning negatively


to the little lying bitch/leech
bitching bout me when im not around?
oh no i wouldnt bitch bout you
that be quivalent to your low status
i'd WAIT for you to be bitched about:)
doing nothing is the sweetest payback?


the medicine's making me taste things bitter
and im waking up my senses
things are changing


i'll be fine
i HAVE to be fine
wouldnt and aint gonna be pulled down
no matter how hard it is
i never hide my tears
its not shameful to let out emotions

keeping it in is worse than letting it out


michie, you can do it


screw love
you got all the examples around you
wait for a guy?
oh he will never come
its better off
occupied with other stuff
he will come unexpectedly

afterall feb's shown another example
that guy was after sex
jerk


and i know its so canny
i hear and see his name everywhere still
but i merely laugh at his name
to think i'd cry the moment i think of him
and what a concidence
today's 3 months after the whole turmoil
not that i keep track
but i just check the date after mentioning bout him
and found out


Michie still wants to be wild
but just a lil cut down on it
:/



i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes till i touch the sky
make a wish, take a chance
and break away
out of the darkness and into the sun
but i wouldnt forget the ones that i loved
i'll take a risk, take a chance
make a change and break away

10:06 PM
finish typing