Monday, May 18, 2009
im super annoyed
this laptop cant blog properly
im at benjamin kazzie's place
im isolating myself here
no one knows me here
its like a great escape
i thought.
but no im wrong
my thoughts are still with me D:
today i didnt drink
finally for 5 nights straight
of downing myself with vodka and alcohol
tonight i didnt
most probably im staying at a decent family's hse
but that didnt stop me from wanting
its helps me escape
ease my thoughts when my eyes closes
allowing me to zonk out
without thinking at all
thats what im drinking for
sounds pathetic
when im supposed to enjoy it
but now its pain i feel
im damn screwed
im like this total bitch
who did something that
she shld never had done
in the first place at all
i went to swim
and guess what i saw
someone in braces smiling
swam like 5 laps non stop
and staying under water
was like my mind taking refuge
i have one more day to wallow
its the limit
i have to do it
i think i can
leooo says too much vodka
will create hydrochloric acid
that explains the gastric i had
soon my lungs will get at me too
for trying to drown them with vodka and bacardi
i need to climb up again
or i be labelled
michie's worse than before
my blog's so saddistic
i wonder who actually
reads my shit out here
Labels: im not a saddist
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