i want my friends back

haha what a joke
they wouldnt appear
no matter how much
i reach out
its air im grabbing
no more chester's shirt to let me pull
no more peiling's crazy singing
no more hunwei's sick jokes
no more domic's concern as a brudder
no more mathew's caring attention

school was boring
we played poker
i used picture cards to disguise
given some cyber wellness talk
bout blogging and etc
i slept through it


came home
was bout to go skate
mummy nagged
"you'r still sick"
no im not
i could had just walked out but no i stayed home
so i sulked at home
and fell aslp

when i woke up
she treated me so nicely

mummy you shld be happy
your daughter dont have those
shen jin bing friends you say always anymore
they'r G.O.N.E

and i complained during recess
i got no friends :(
after school i complained again

i feel damn sad for myself
some pathetic sore loser with no life
i dont have friends

i have school friends
but i want my outside friends
BACK

so do i wait 2 years for you to be let out chester?
you selfish
you call yourself my bestfr?
you leave me alone out here
and every night i continue to have insomia

longing for those days like last time
where we all meet up
slack
play

now
there's nothing


and my antibiotics never seem to finish

and i did something stupid today
i went to playback the memories
of
love

urgh pathetic

haha monsie scares mango
hilarious
im turning insane soon
im still able to laugh
im hiding it
hiding the fear
i dont like this feeling
alone on my own

10:10 PM

i want my friends back

haha what a joke
they wouldnt appear
no matter how much
i reach out
its air im grabbing
no more chester's shirt to let me pull
no more peiling's crazy singing
no more hunwei's sick jokes
no more domic's concern as a brudder
no more mathew's caring attention

school was boring
we played poker
i used picture cards to disguise
given some cyber wellness talk
bout blogging and etc
i slept through it


came home
was bout to go skate
mummy nagged
"you'r still sick"
no im not
i could had just walked out but no i stayed home
so i sulked at home
and fell aslp

when i woke up
she treated me so nicely

mummy you shld be happy
your daughter dont have those
shen jin bing friends you say always anymore
they'r G.O.N.E

and i complained during recess
i got no friends :(
after school i complained again

i feel damn sad for myself
some pathetic sore loser with no life
i dont have friends

i have school friends
but i want my outside friends
BACK

so do i wait 2 years for you to be let out chester?
you selfish
you call yourself my bestfr?
you leave me alone out here
and every night i continue to have insomia

longing for those days like last time
where we all meet up
slack
play

now
there's nothing


and my antibiotics never seem to finish

and i did something stupid today
i went to playback the memories
of
love

urgh pathetic

haha monsie scares mango
hilarious
im turning insane soon
im still able to laugh
im hiding it
hiding the fear
i dont like this feeling
alone on my own

10:10 PM
finish typing