Tuesday, March 24, 2009
there are countless stuff to say
yes its over
of course i couldnt get over it
i was still crying 2 hours ago
and jon healed me
yes the one who made me this way
is eventually the only one
that can help pick myself up again
it doesnt matter
if you'r here for me
as a friend or not
i'll pull myself up
as long as you'll be there for me
im sorry to everyone i've made them worried for
im kinda unstable now
just let me rot for awhile more kay
its alil mentally unstable now
cuz i can cry any min
and be strong after i think positive
and im having a phobia
phobia of being alone
becuz when im alone i think
thinking=crying now
so im forcing myself to not think
i asked myself how did i slp ystd
and i actually dont know how i fell aslp
when i sleep i escape from reality for awhile
when i wake up tears flow
i've been crying since last week
my eyes are like goldfish eyes
but now im controlling
stupid brain, stop controlling my emotions over actions
last but not least
its a relieve to know
you didnt just break up and go off
yes we'll be great friends
and stay true to your words potato boy
i'll learn to stop loving you
but of course i can love you as a friend
though my heart yearns to live in you presence once more
i have to learn to let go
thanks for letting me grow up
i wouldnt hate you like what you said
i cant bear to and its a tiring thing to do
so i have to say goodbye as a girlfr to you now
and happy one month to the month we could had
i'll smile to say goodbye:)
and dont blame yourself
cuz it hurts me just like how
you dont wish to see me hurt
kay its a end and a start to us
i shld stop telling myself
"tonight cry last time"
then tmr cry again
i need to get a firm grip
and i need and want you
to be there
when im picking myself up now
give me support
as a friend
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