Wednesday, March 18, 2009
fuck it seriously
i got no work done
i got haunted by you in nightmares
i woke up crying over you
i put on a fake smile in town
i ask people to donate
i burnt myself at the skatepark
i went lan on my own
i emo on the swings
i fell aslp at my desk
i pretended nothing happened
i thought i'll be fine
i had a call with jo
i was preached about right and wrong
i already knew what to do in mind
but
my heart being weaker got attacked
i just got back from jared's parteh
i got asked to dance
i was in no fucking mood to dance
i drink drink drink and drink
vodka hooch e33 barcadi nitez
whatever that i found on the table
i just cant get myself drunk
i want to but i end up getting more sober
i feel so sad for myself
this is what i get when i let my heart win
somehow someway i regret
im told to stand up for myself
i myself knows it without ppl telling
but my emotions controlled my actions
so i end up in such a state now
for fuck im feeling miserable
each time when you'r having fun
i know its not worth
i know but i did nothing
what do you take me for
just look me in the eyes and answer me
instead of keeping quiet or looking away
i know its gonna be tough if this ends
tough for me to get over but not you
and i know very clearly
i cant cling on to something thats not meant to be
at the end of the day i have to let it go
im not a toy
like every other girl
i just wanted to know
whats love like
im waiting to see what you'r gonna do about it
im gonna stay firm
emotionally and physically now
hell with my pride
cuz tonight im gonna cry
cry over you and start being strong tmr
its gonna be tough
but i know i can do it
if you really think you love me
stop doing nothing
11:40 PM