Saturday, January 10, 2009
im home on a saturday
first time of my life
im not complaining
instead im so happy
because now im hearing
my mum trying to dye my dad's hair
and im cherishing it like everything
cuz i never know when
i'll never hear them again
and cuz i keep crying
my eyes are frigging swollen still
and the fear of losing my parents
are eating me alive after the camp
i can still rmb last night
i said ILOVEyou to mummy and papa
and mummy hugged me for the very first time
i'll never forget ystd
9 january 2008, i was 15
no i dont feel like going out
so what if its a saturday
im gonna plan for more saturdays
to stay home or BRING them out TOGETHER
they can be my friends
my family can be a clique
im so sorry to those of my friends
esp ppl like brenda
i didnt know your life was such painstaking
im sorry i stayed away like the rest
i followed what the crowd did
and yijie you will always be free
to join us at lunch or breakfast
cuz i'll call you over again the next time
im sorry nad you lost your dad
jocelyn too, i have to admit
i dont understand the pain cuz i have a dad
that's still alive
and i promise i will cherish it
and wouldnt let them down
i feel so terrible now that i've looked back
this camp totally triggered my mind and brain
im not the girl
thats desperate for parties so i can feel secure
ANYMORE
because i wanna spent time with mummy and papa
as long as i can
ILOVEYOUBOTH
and the story i typed on the previous post
here's the link for the more detailed one
Http://helpjacqui.com/home.htm#top
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