HEYY IM BACK FROM CAMP
no i didnt go missing
guess what i told no one abt camp
like those people outside, *fumes
talking about it makes me pissed
no one contacted me and i was
OKAY, michelle its okay, you'r fine still right:D
nothing to be dead over
but now im back home
its friday night and everyone's away
and i cant even see their carbon dioxide float away plz

CAUTION! LONG POST, REALLY LONG
anw this is my blog
i just elaborate my emotions here
okay here it goes

DAY ONE
WOAH SHIOK ARH! laugh and laughed
trainers: Leroy, Andrea, Candice
LEROY rawks my socks
he looks like a vamp and has fangs
*faints so kewl pleaze
and he's damn funny
i wanna meet his dad cuz it be damn funny
like father like son, lols
went through alot of strategies
"DARE TO DREAM"
and many more stuff
and i think his daughter is a very lucky girl

Andrea was abit not funny but in the end
she's like damn nice really really
and though she' a geek/moon
she's damn SMART:D

Candice was just KRAZY+KEWT
my gawd and she's prettaye
she used to be in SIA
and she's damn funny my gawd

then we went home around 9 plus that day(:

DAY TWO
(due to severe stress and fatigue resulting in....)
TEMPORARY LOSS OF MEMORY
only remember this part onwards

Leroy was so scary, he came to class
showed us this story of a girl
pronounced as jacky but not spelled that way
she got badly burned and disfigured
cuz due to a guy's recklessness and irresponsibility
and the actual thing is both were returning from parties
but on the highway the guy was abit drunk
he crashed into the car she was in
she was burned alive but saved
she did despair but did not give up
she even went on operah winfrey's show
amazingly she didnt even blame the guy's mother
she even patted her and said its okay

if its me i think i will give up on life
because im not that strong as her
and when i saw the whole video i cried
the voice in my head chanted this
I WILL Not DRINK that much AGAIN
I will think twice before entering and leaving a party
i know there's nothing wrong about drinking
if you take safety precautions but still
this words came into my mind
it left a big impression on me

then the scary part came
Leroy talked to us about our lives
about our parents
we were to close our eyes and imagine
we all cried like never before
and thought alot
in the end our eyes were all swollen

*skips to ending part

we were all so scared
we ran out calling our parents
mummy picked up the phone
and got so shocked with papa
th were outside eating
but after my phone call to them
they said they couldnt eat
and mummy said she couldnt sleep well

and this is THE FIRST TIME
mummy said these things
the first ever words she expressed
that i felt love in it before
i CRIED alot

at night we bath in icy water
cuz i was so nervous for the next day
i jumped around
HYPERACTIVE when over happy and nervous
then went to slp

DAY THREE
(which was today)

woke up at six
eyes swollen, due to severe crying ystd
washed up and went for andrea's course
she taught us more strategies(:
thank you for being so patient really

Leroy, he came in
everybody was like "urghh"
abit scared you know, after ystd
but he made us laughed
and he told us the truth of his life
before we ended the class thing
i asked him outside
can you show me your fangs
then he laughed, heehee
THANKS for being the best coach and your stories

Candice was krazy and kewt again
shared alot and stuff
muahaha really man she rocks too
i'll MISS them so much

then at the end we sang a song
regardless of who we are we bonded
i snatched 4 posters to encourage myself
did feedback forms and hugged them goodbye

then went dinner at foyer
most of clique's parents came
except for me nad and jocelyn
i knew papa and mummy will be late
but i waited downstairs all the while
till they came i said ILOVEYOU
for the first time
and mummy's response was like
"we not HONGKA(christen) no need say this"
i was like no luh not christen then cannot love meh
i first time say then like that but i didnt give up
i said in chinese(:

reached the hall
the frightening GARy that rini said
talked to everyone in the closing ceremony
he's a very GOOD speaker
ALL OF THEM ARE

at the point of time he spoke english
but mummy and papa werent highly educated
they dont really understand english
so i started turning to mummy, explain
then to papa, explain
and i told myself IF ONLY
i could give up something just to
let them understand the talk even better
but in the end i told myself
just do it, explain your very best
and i think i DID

after that
they gave us time to hug our parents
after all the touching stories
i HUGGED mummy
for the first time of my life
and i told her everything
and i hugged papa also
though its not his first time i hugged him

then we went home

--------------------------------

now at home
my eyes are still swollen
i still feel like crying
every snigle minute
i wanted to call someone to tell them
everything in my mind now
but i couldnt find
so i decided to type it all here
for MYSELF(:
ilovemyself, learnt from camp

mummy's mother, wai po
i believed didnt express love to my mum
in the way like saying ILOVEYOU
or hugging and kissing
so my mother NEVER did those to me
i NEVER DID blame her
maybe a few times when i was young
but i thought to myself
its NOT i dont dare express my love to her
its im scared if she will feel awakard and stuff
so i never did express my love till today
and i CRIED like mad

And papa even though you always keep quiet
im sure you love me and roy alot
if its hard for you to express to
you dont have to and i dont expect to force you
i just am going to let you and mummy know
ILOVEBOTH OF you two ALOT
i could even give up my life
cuz im your daughter
ILOVEYOU
and i promise to be strong

after this camp i really learnt like alot
about self esteem too
_____ are usually lonely ppl
and no wonder i talk to marsions abt it before
CAME true EXAMPLE:
handsome boy and not that pretty girl
ok only me and marsions know this part....

and please i really got no time
to bother how people think already
in EVERY school there be a IN and OUT clique
and im not afraid to list names now
the geraldine alicia twins adeline cique
i did nothing to this people at all but....
okay i use to get out of their way
cuz i know they dont like me
they also dont like alot of people
but come to think of it my clique's bond
is so much stronger and
not comparing about cliques but characters
i will not ALLOW myself
to be upset over any of you guy's remarks or actions

and im gonna SERIOUSLY
have to stop wasting my own time
stop wanting to go out that much
in my head its very alienish
i think of things this way
EVERYONE'S OUT, I ENVY THEM
i imagine those ppl partying
and wishing i was there too
but too bad im a pathetic nobody at home
then i try to find ways to go out

i CANNOT think this way ANYMORE
cuz its stupid and childish
i have to study cuz im running out of time

and even though i dread for the day
that leroy say might come anytime
even though it cant be escaped from
but still i BEG everyone to cherish your parents
they WOULDNT last forever in your life
they may keep quiet and not voice out
but deeply they may not know how to express their love
LOVE THEM WITH ALL YOUR HEART PLEASE
(esp roy, pls)

and to all my friends
thanks for being there
each and everyone one of you
MAKES A DIFFERENCE
to me badly, i swear
(refering to school friends)
*too bad if you'r not a girl

and lastly a warning out there to others
when you MAKE michie cry
her being an alien
will suddenly BAM and
all the sad things of every memory
combine tgt to queue up to drip
so the tears drip drip drip
and its very hard to STOP her
think twice before mentioning the word: PARENT
or making her sad

LONG POST
cuz i thought so much
my eyes are swelling and hurts

AND I SHALL NOT CARE
IF THERE'S NO ONE I CAN TALK TO ONLINE
EVEN THOUGH MANY CONTACTS ARE ONLINE
CUZ I TELL MYSELF AND LEARNT IN CAMP

I CAN DO IT!
GOOOOOOO MICHIE

11:27 PM

HEYY IM BACK FROM CAMP
no i didnt go missing
guess what i told no one abt camp
like those people outside, *fumes
talking about it makes me pissed
no one contacted me and i was
OKAY, michelle its okay, you'r fine still right:D
nothing to be dead over
but now im back home
its friday night and everyone's away
and i cant even see their carbon dioxide float away plz

CAUTION! LONG POST, REALLY LONG
anw this is my blog
i just elaborate my emotions here
okay here it goes

DAY ONE
WOAH SHIOK ARH! laugh and laughed
trainers: Leroy, Andrea, Candice
LEROY rawks my socks
he looks like a vamp and has fangs
*faints so kewl pleaze
and he's damn funny
i wanna meet his dad cuz it be damn funny
like father like son, lols
went through alot of strategies
"DARE TO DREAM"
and many more stuff
and i think his daughter is a very lucky girl

Andrea was abit not funny but in the end
she's like damn nice really really
and though she' a geek/moon
she's damn SMART:D

Candice was just KRAZY+KEWT
my gawd and she's prettaye
she used to be in SIA
and she's damn funny my gawd

then we went home around 9 plus that day(:

DAY TWO
(due to severe stress and fatigue resulting in....)
TEMPORARY LOSS OF MEMORY
only remember this part onwards

Leroy was so scary, he came to class
showed us this story of a girl
pronounced as jacky but not spelled that way
she got badly burned and disfigured
cuz due to a guy's recklessness and irresponsibility
and the actual thing is both were returning from parties
but on the highway the guy was abit drunk
he crashed into the car she was in
she was burned alive but saved
she did despair but did not give up
she even went on operah winfrey's show
amazingly she didnt even blame the guy's mother
she even patted her and said its okay

if its me i think i will give up on life
because im not that strong as her
and when i saw the whole video i cried
the voice in my head chanted this
I WILL Not DRINK that much AGAIN
I will think twice before entering and leaving a party
i know there's nothing wrong about drinking
if you take safety precautions but still
this words came into my mind
it left a big impression on me

then the scary part came
Leroy talked to us about our lives
about our parents
we were to close our eyes and imagine
we all cried like never before
and thought alot
in the end our eyes were all swollen

*skips to ending part

we were all so scared
we ran out calling our parents
mummy picked up the phone
and got so shocked with papa
th were outside eating
but after my phone call to them
they said they couldnt eat
and mummy said she couldnt sleep well

and this is THE FIRST TIME
mummy said these things
the first ever words she expressed
that i felt love in it before
i CRIED alot

at night we bath in icy water
cuz i was so nervous for the next day
i jumped around
HYPERACTIVE when over happy and nervous
then went to slp

DAY THREE
(which was today)

woke up at six
eyes swollen, due to severe crying ystd
washed up and went for andrea's course
she taught us more strategies(:
thank you for being so patient really

Leroy, he came in
everybody was like "urghh"
abit scared you know, after ystd
but he made us laughed
and he told us the truth of his life
before we ended the class thing
i asked him outside
can you show me your fangs
then he laughed, heehee
THANKS for being the best coach and your stories

Candice was krazy and kewt again
shared alot and stuff
muahaha really man she rocks too
i'll MISS them so much

then at the end we sang a song
regardless of who we are we bonded
i snatched 4 posters to encourage myself
did feedback forms and hugged them goodbye

then went dinner at foyer
most of clique's parents came
except for me nad and jocelyn
i knew papa and mummy will be late
but i waited downstairs all the while
till they came i said ILOVEYOU
for the first time
and mummy's response was like
"we not HONGKA(christen) no need say this"
i was like no luh not christen then cannot love meh
i first time say then like that but i didnt give up
i said in chinese(:

reached the hall
the frightening GARy that rini said
talked to everyone in the closing ceremony
he's a very GOOD speaker
ALL OF THEM ARE

at the point of time he spoke english
but mummy and papa werent highly educated
they dont really understand english
so i started turning to mummy, explain
then to papa, explain
and i told myself IF ONLY
i could give up something just to
let them understand the talk even better
but in the end i told myself
just do it, explain your very best
and i think i DID

after that
they gave us time to hug our parents
after all the touching stories
i HUGGED mummy
for the first time of my life
and i told her everything
and i hugged papa also
though its not his first time i hugged him

then we went home

--------------------------------

now at home
my eyes are still swollen
i still feel like crying
every snigle minute
i wanted to call someone to tell them
everything in my mind now
but i couldnt find
so i decided to type it all here
for MYSELF(:
ilovemyself, learnt from camp

mummy's mother, wai po
i believed didnt express love to my mum
in the way like saying ILOVEYOU
or hugging and kissing
so my mother NEVER did those to me
i NEVER DID blame her
maybe a few times when i was young
but i thought to myself
its NOT i dont dare express my love to her
its im scared if she will feel awakard and stuff
so i never did express my love till today
and i CRIED like mad

And papa even though you always keep quiet
im sure you love me and roy alot
if its hard for you to express to
you dont have to and i dont expect to force you
i just am going to let you and mummy know
ILOVEBOTH OF you two ALOT
i could even give up my life
cuz im your daughter
ILOVEYOU
and i promise to be strong

after this camp i really learnt like alot
about self esteem too
_____ are usually lonely ppl
and no wonder i talk to marsions abt it before
CAME true EXAMPLE:
handsome boy and not that pretty girl
ok only me and marsions know this part....

and please i really got no time
to bother how people think already
in EVERY school there be a IN and OUT clique
and im not afraid to list names now
the geraldine alicia twins adeline cique
i did nothing to this people at all but....
okay i use to get out of their way
cuz i know they dont like me
they also dont like alot of people
but come to think of it my clique's bond
is so much stronger and
not comparing about cliques but characters
i will not ALLOW myself
to be upset over any of you guy's remarks or actions

and im gonna SERIOUSLY
have to stop wasting my own time
stop wanting to go out that much
in my head its very alienish
i think of things this way
EVERYONE'S OUT, I ENVY THEM
i imagine those ppl partying
and wishing i was there too
but too bad im a pathetic nobody at home
then i try to find ways to go out

i CANNOT think this way ANYMORE
cuz its stupid and childish
i have to study cuz im running out of time

and even though i dread for the day
that leroy say might come anytime
even though it cant be escaped from
but still i BEG everyone to cherish your parents
they WOULDNT last forever in your life
they may keep quiet and not voice out
but deeply they may not know how to express their love
LOVE THEM WITH ALL YOUR HEART PLEASE
(esp roy, pls)

and to all my friends
thanks for being there
each and everyone one of you
MAKES A DIFFERENCE
to me badly, i swear
(refering to school friends)
*too bad if you'r not a girl

and lastly a warning out there to others
when you MAKE michie cry
her being an alien
will suddenly BAM and
all the sad things of every memory
combine tgt to queue up to drip
so the tears drip drip drip
and its very hard to STOP her
think twice before mentioning the word: PARENT
or making her sad

LONG POST
cuz i thought so much
my eyes are swelling and hurts

AND I SHALL NOT CARE
IF THERE'S NO ONE I CAN TALK TO ONLINE
EVEN THOUGH MANY CONTACTS ARE ONLINE
CUZ I TELL MYSELF AND LEARNT IN CAMP

I CAN DO IT!
GOOOOOOO MICHIE

11:27 PM
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