im at my aunt's hse now

im wearing like a town girl

i feel like a poser

actually not im just wearing

what mummy bought and picked for me

today im more girly than ever

went town with relatives

saw andros brudder and co

saw brandon and basil co

:( no the braces guy didnt go :(

jumped about the arcade

cuz very happy to see so many ppl

i havent seen for awhile ((:

bought a fluffy wallet for myself

16 buckzx at taka ((: i like

yeah everyone's asking why dad go town wif me

i answered to pay for me, yea like real

then came aunt's house to bbq thing

i rmb last year's today or this period

i was happily over in love

today of this year im happily sulking

i frown smile sulk worry so much

i dont know why, most probably

im insane over the stress in sch

for once i burn midnight oil to study

first time study my head off for maths&chem

at times when there's ppl presence

i follow the atmosphere

but when nobody's there

hi henry, er you wanted your name here

meeting nico brudder tmr

8:48 PM

MAJOR bloody people

those i called didnt answer

those i text didnt reply

those i asked but didnt bother

i dont know why all of you

are saved in my contact list

as FRIENDS

but when i was desperately needing help

every single one DIED or crap

seriously you call this friendships?

i call it bull shiat

i rather be a loner

then to have friends that cant "exist"

i thank people like bestie

people like peiling nicholas han bernard

thanks for trying to help, seriously

and lex thanks for trying though

im sad

im angry

im frustrated

im annoyed

im scared

im just not myself

im gonna bang the wall soon

3:39 PM

Im in sch again, using free computer
went MY. Gambled and bought lots of
CHEWY BUBBLE GUM
Had lots of fun, yea man
The aunties couldn’t recognized me
Couzzies said I grew more girly now
OF COURSE, im a girl aye
And the bruise on my leg
Is damn uglyaye D:

Okay camwhored alil
Then stuck in the jam for
Frigging 2 long hours

Went cyrus, haven’t step in
Alr pulled out cuz inside got fight?
Idk larh okay so went gamer Inc
Couldn’t stand the smoke there
Went home and rot

Felt like a total luzzar
Called people
3 in dota match cant help
2 with girlfr cant help
1 overseas sleeping
countless outside so cant help
so annoyed last night, I slept.

Im such a saddist

C.nuts: eff you

8:26 AM

im feeling blank
i have 2 mins to type everything

Bestfr: i will forgive you for everything
you did or is gonna do
because you are my best friend
i wouldnt blame you
but please dont stood me up
just cuz your girl suddenly wants you there?
when you asked me out and i was there alr

last night i went out
in the dark i walked
i asked ppl out
all gave excuses
to spent time with their partners
i had nowhere to go
i went to swing

today also
after meeting nico awhile
i came to use com at lan
my life's really saddening

i frown hard

4:48 PM

Hey yoz!

im in cyrus noww

with kendrick, roy and zhong ming and caleb

saw vernon eww.

we saw a transexual on the way

"she's" prettaye and was telling them

but said to kendrick in a hoarse voice

"stop laughing boy"

we got freaked out and ran

yeah with them staying over

i practically only slpt for 3-4 hrs

this is gonna be a long post

cuz i alot happened this few days

ystd went to skate at cine skatepark

i. FELL. got LAUGHED at

yeah whatever at least i tried

and it was worth the bruise

cuz i finally learnt the OLLIE

yay me((: and i have someone to teach me soon

silly nurul, she's so kewt

she got the wrong guy's number

and deeply hurt the other guy's pride by saying

"oh i dont want your number alr, i ask wrongly"

i was laughin at the other end

went fareast slack

then went plaza sing to drum

saw couzzie's frens

they were watching behind me

waiting to see me fail

but i proved them wrong

they had nothing to say and walked off

yay me((:

camwhored a lil

hmm then went home

seriously the com's still not fixed

and it just feels empty

when you'r home with nothing to do

i wished to use the computer

at times like that

cyrus vip room is friggin cold

and cursing at dota games is so COMMON

obviously im not a bitchy bestfr.

its fine if you needs to spend more time with her

silly you, first love at 17
(: last long man

oh i know a skaterboy ystd

he's called Han. yup

okay random

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ((:

Michie can do it

grins widely

9:34 AM

arghhh i have 2 mins

cuz im using sch com

im so bored school's really boring

and its a drag till 2.30

meeting nico at amk

getting back my jacket((:

yupyup hasnt seen this brudder

in a long time i suppose

i miss lexeous,

i want a lamb(private joke) for v.day

yeah sch organized an outing for sec 4 and 5

spent valentines day with pets and elderly

maybe i should go

or just raid town and rant at couples

okayokay enough of my crap

im gonna skate tmr i guess

and seriously though you'r an important fr

you dont like people copying you

then im telling you now

i DONT like ppl copying me too

HELLO, i was the first to start it

so why you guys so poser copy me?

im sorry i dont like it

i have been nice keeping shut bout this

and going out without my "precious" these days

cuz you guys be bringing it

yeah one word posers

D:

1:20 PM

my fingers are frozen cold

ystd afternoon was terrible

i saw someone's ()&*)#^*^#

no i wasnt flashed at

this guy was talking to me online

then he put his porno pic

and i was so retarded i asked peiling

"whats that?"

she burst out laughing while telling me

i. SCREAMED.

miss lex, lurve you boy(:

FYI, lex is NOT my boyfr

he's just a male best friend

and he left for australia

so stop thinking crap you idiots

8:25 AM

sad. yes im frowning
more like fretting
lexeous you idiot i miss you:(
clique misses you too, esp chester

at lan now with peiling
my itchy fingers cant leave the keyboard
wonderful events coming up soon
this friday going wild, and the 21 feb, whoots
party in planning though its abit early

im okay with maths now, miracle
i bearly fall aslp now, miracle
well overall im just happy abt sch progress

i will not allow new things
to break any forms of barrel i have built

LEXEOUS i miss you:(
i wanna be FedEx there
alright alright all my crap

when my com is fix
shall catch up with everyone again
for the time being
communication through text

4:56 PM

lex is gone D:

i miss you, you idiot

and i cried till my eyes were sore

and i better see you

on the morning of my birthday

you promised

Clique misses you alot too

high hopes of mine always fall

so i learnt to disappoint myself first

then slowly see if things will change

im vice cheer captain

yet im not bitchy enough :/

12:43 PM

im at cyrus now
im very irrtated
there's this physk sitting next to me
im waiting to go lex hse with da ge
but da ge's taking forever to come
urghhh()&#*^*#&^$

this morning papa bring com go HP fix
so currently no computer till friday?
forms of communication
please reach me through my phone

lex this is for you
i love you loads
for everything you ever did for me
promise you come back to visit
i'll miss you everyday
i will wish for you on my birthday
boy, i love you
from the clique and me especially
i'll be there tonight
i'll find a way out

i even skipped briget's party
im sorry briget, thursday i'll surprise you

i love you friend, LEXEOUSTANWEIJING

1:14 PM

im begging you please dont go
lex, i will miss you so much
the clique will miss you terribly
dont board the plane, dont do
i dont wanna lose anyone anymore
whose gonna be there after you go?
lex, dont leave :(

had a farewell dinner at seoul garden
i started crying when we sat down
which made peiling cried too
everyone ate alot, i couldnt
i tried, pulled a smile for lex
went to chester house
slacked awhile and came home
the boys are clubbing tgt for the last night

im utterly upset
everything's upside down

i dont wanna be alone
im afraid to be alone

i wish there is someone different
that will stand by me now
but wait, everyone's too busy to bother
so i should bloody bang the wall
and faint so i wouldnt trouble ppl

11:28 PM

damn me
damn school
damn you lex, dont go:(

no hw today
dying under maths and chem
came home straight after sch
went to lunch with lex and chester

still deciding the party
checking out stores tmr maybe
tmr night will be spend with full clique
gathering at chester house
last party (farewell)
might sob all night :(

you know it really sucks
to be online and see others online
but have no one to talk to
or you type something but backspace
then repeats process again
you just dont wanna off the com
yet you have nothing to do when it's on
yeah this is my life
you call this a loser life

and marsions and others
maybe im paranoid or whatever
i've always give out 100%
i dont expect anything
but merely a lil response
all i get is what shit attitudes
i dont need more please

why wouldnt anyone understand
how it feels like to be like this

you tell me like that
how to smile for you lex?

5:52 PM

im frustrated/upset/in pain/irritated/happy/sad
happy mummy didnt scold
when i told her the truth
the rest cuz of other complications

school scolded us for nothing
we knew we did nothing
uncle paiseh uh, why you so kaypoh?
complain then complain
why still ask the sch so much questions?
you sending your kid in meh?
besides you look too old to ..... alr
(lex's theory)

lex came downstairs after sch
he got so HOT, instructed me to go up change
then come down, he called the clique
da ge got HOT also, skipped work
so we all met up at queens
full clique(:

went back there
wrecked havoc, not really
was waiting to see
but in the end the person never come
lex wore his old sch u
to see if he will get into trouble
lols joker boy

i did my maths there
cuz i brought it there(: guai eh
i had cramps so was in pain
and chester tried to murder me
by offering me coke :@ RAWR
people kept looking at us
cuz we sat outside
lols i suppose ppl who saw me
wouldnt believe im the same girl in sch
yeah i look 12 in sch

came home study study study
used com for research

my best clique ever
chester, lexeous, da ge, hunwei, peiling
with lex leaving this sat D:
its INCOMPLETE by then

i seem to be stuck in between
the past and reality

10:46 PM

cry then die
then hope a vampire come saves me
:(

man ah chek, dont fret
lex im goona miss you
*wahhhhhh sobs
i want the week to end cuz it be sat and sun
but if it ends you will be leaving alr
i tell you friend
im gonna cry for a week okay:(

wl KS and the fren didnt come today
nvm then
lucky i had rini best andros andri and onrage
brudder was damn hilarious
managed to keep me entertain
can you imagine i sit there till 4
then they cant turn up
so i just walk off
it be hmm retarded :x
and we almost got into trouble
cuz some jackass complained to sch
say got students smoke
i DID not, lols

and im very upset
frustrated with today
upset with myself
i cant get my chemistry
i cant seem to get everything

and yes im gonna bang wall soon
bring your effing girlfr away tyl
go brag to someone else

im too tired to care anymore

im gonna be selfish
cuz now, its gonna be all by my own
i'll most probably keep everyone out

edward cullen in real life?
dream harder :x

10:29 PM

one word, Ftttttt, pronounce with teeth only
just like the picture
i show it to ppl when im irritated

i help make so many people happy today
in return i get their black face
im not worth to get that okay
i shld just drink coke and die
because my tummy hurts

i hate hate hate it
when im being nice
and the person's like so )(&#*^#&%
i dont expect anything in return
but at least
try doing something?

one call from marsions
chiong out of house
went town and acc buy things
and went cine, did a HUGE favor for marsions
she owe me big time
yeah far too many times alr
and yet marsion's get so disheartened easily
im PISSED with her attitude now
seriously man
had such a great time
come home alr then she not happy :(

lex they all went to club
that explains why im not with them
this sat lex is leaving
this sat i got invited to yasmin's party
i'll just leave early and go the airport
his check in time is 7.30 i think

chester had 8 points(:
hunwei had 13 pts
weixiang, dont fret, you can do it one(:

haiz im like damn upset with myself
im so affected easily when im down
its like i was all merry go round
then important ppl around me affected
then i also:(

but nehmind, MICHIE CAN DO IT
da ge's working at tampiness
shall drop by soon

lurves sweethearts

i dont know when i can blog after today

9:27 PM

im home(:
went vivo then chinatown
today woke up cousies came
damn kewt the baby(:

went vivo with lex and chester
wanted to buy TWILIGHT
but SOLDOUT :(
and this two literally left me behind
and went to dont know where larh
but lucky marsions was on the phone with me(:
lex is a total jerk
he said last night was a joke
yeah but still... nvm

this is my theory
when someone(lex) triggers my mind
about someone from the past
for a moment
i will think about that someone again
i will want that someone back again
etc etc etc
but like i said, its just for a moment
the person will linger in my mind
but the lingering will never last long
because its just not real after some time
so yeah

im not suppose to have a boyfriend
even though at times
i want one when i see couples out there
but its for my own good
i cant afford to be distracted this year

lex is leaving this sat, 17


sch starts tmr for real

ALL THE BEST FOR CHESTER AND HUNWEI
and the rest in their sch clique
if good grades, i want ice cream
if bad, :( we go swing

9:41 PM

i cut my hair
had dinner with mummy and papa
went over to lex house
saw him and his sister packing
then he came to sat beside me
he pushed his laptop over
and showed me something of the past

yeah it made my whole day sad
you eediotic idiot

11:01 PM

im home on a saturday
first time of my life
im not complaining
instead im so happy
because now im hearing
my mum trying to dye my dad's hair
and im cherishing it like everything
cuz i never know when
i'll never hear them again

and cuz i keep crying
my eyes are frigging swollen still
and the fear of losing my parents
are eating me alive after the camp

i can still rmb last night
i said ILOVEyou to mummy and papa
and mummy hugged me for the very first time
i'll never forget ystd
9 january 2008, i was 15

no i dont feel like going out
so what if its a saturday
im gonna plan for more saturdays
to stay home or BRING them out TOGETHER
they can be my friends
my family can be a clique

im so sorry to those of my friends
esp ppl like brenda
i didnt know your life was such painstaking
im sorry i stayed away like the rest
i followed what the crowd did
and yijie you will always be free
to join us at lunch or breakfast
cuz i'll call you over again the next time

im sorry nad you lost your dad
jocelyn too, i have to admit
i dont understand the pain cuz i have a dad
that's still alive
and i promise i will cherish it
and wouldnt let them down

i feel so terrible now that i've looked back
this camp totally triggered my mind and brain

im not the girl
thats desperate for parties so i can feel secure
ANYMORE
because i wanna spent time with mummy and papa
as long as i can

ILOVEYOUBOTH


and the story i typed on the previous post
here's the link for the more detailed one

Http://helpjacqui.com/home.htm#top

11:14 AM

HEYY IM BACK FROM CAMP
no i didnt go missing
guess what i told no one abt camp
like those people outside, *fumes
talking about it makes me pissed
no one contacted me and i was
OKAY, michelle its okay, you'r fine still right:D
nothing to be dead over
but now im back home
its friday night and everyone's away
and i cant even see their carbon dioxide float away plz

CAUTION! LONG POST, REALLY LONG
anw this is my blog
i just elaborate my emotions here
okay here it goes

DAY ONE
WOAH SHIOK ARH! laugh and laughed
trainers: Leroy, Andrea, Candice
LEROY rawks my socks
he looks like a vamp and has fangs
*faints so kewl pleaze
and he's damn funny
i wanna meet his dad cuz it be damn funny
like father like son, lols
went through alot of strategies
"DARE TO DREAM"
and many more stuff
and i think his daughter is a very lucky girl

Andrea was abit not funny but in the end
she's like damn nice really really
and though she' a geek/moon
she's damn SMART:D

Candice was just KRAZY+KEWT
my gawd and she's prettaye
she used to be in SIA
and she's damn funny my gawd

then we went home around 9 plus that day(:

DAY TWO
(due to severe stress and fatigue resulting in....)
TEMPORARY LOSS OF MEMORY
only remember this part onwards

Leroy was so scary, he came to class
showed us this story of a girl
pronounced as jacky but not spelled that way
she got badly burned and disfigured
cuz due to a guy's recklessness and irresponsibility
and the actual thing is both were returning from parties
but on the highway the guy was abit drunk
he crashed into the car she was in
she was burned alive but saved
she did despair but did not give up
she even went on operah winfrey's show
amazingly she didnt even blame the guy's mother
she even patted her and said its okay

if its me i think i will give up on life
because im not that strong as her
and when i saw the whole video i cried
the voice in my head chanted this
I WILL Not DRINK that much AGAIN
I will think twice before entering and leaving a party
i know there's nothing wrong about drinking
if you take safety precautions but still
this words came into my mind
it left a big impression on me

then the scary part came
Leroy talked to us about our lives
about our parents
we were to close our eyes and imagine
we all cried like never before
and thought alot
in the end our eyes were all swollen

*skips to ending part

we were all so scared
we ran out calling our parents
mummy picked up the phone
and got so shocked with papa
th were outside eating
but after my phone call to them
they said they couldnt eat
and mummy said she couldnt sleep well

and this is THE FIRST TIME
mummy said these things
the first ever words she expressed
that i felt love in it before
i CRIED alot

at night we bath in icy water
cuz i was so nervous for the next day
i jumped around
HYPERACTIVE when over happy and nervous
then went to slp

DAY THREE
(which was today)

woke up at six
eyes swollen, due to severe crying ystd
washed up and went for andrea's course
she taught us more strategies(:
thank you for being so patient really

Leroy, he came in
everybody was like "urghh"
abit scared you know, after ystd
but he made us laughed
and he told us the truth of his life
before we ended the class thing
i asked him outside
can you show me your fangs
then he laughed, heehee
THANKS for being the best coach and your stories

Candice was krazy and kewt again
shared alot and stuff
muahaha really man she rocks too
i'll MISS them so much

then at the end we sang a song
regardless of who we are we bonded
i snatched 4 posters to encourage myself
did feedback forms and hugged them goodbye

then went dinner at foyer
most of clique's parents came
except for me nad and jocelyn
i knew papa and mummy will be late
but i waited downstairs all the while
till they came i said ILOVEYOU
for the first time
and mummy's response was like
"we not HONGKA(christen) no need say this"
i was like no luh not christen then cannot love meh
i first time say then like that but i didnt give up
i said in chinese(:

reached the hall
the frightening GARy that rini said
talked to everyone in the closing ceremony
he's a very GOOD speaker
ALL OF THEM ARE

at the point of time he spoke english
but mummy and papa werent highly educated
they dont really understand english
so i started turning to mummy, explain
then to papa, explain
and i told myself IF ONLY
i could give up something just to
let them understand the talk even better
but in the end i told myself
just do it, explain your very best
and i think i DID

after that
they gave us time to hug our parents
after all the touching stories
i HUGGED mummy
for the first time of my life
and i told her everything
and i hugged papa also
though its not his first time i hugged him

then we went home

--------------------------------

now at home
my eyes are still swollen
i still feel like crying
every snigle minute
i wanted to call someone to tell them
everything in my mind now
but i couldnt find
so i decided to type it all here
for MYSELF(:
ilovemyself, learnt from camp

mummy's mother, wai po
i believed didnt express love to my mum
in the way like saying ILOVEYOU
or hugging and kissing
so my mother NEVER did those to me
i NEVER DID blame her
maybe a few times when i was young
but i thought to myself
its NOT i dont dare express my love to her
its im scared if she will feel awakard and stuff
so i never did express my love till today
and i CRIED like mad

And papa even though you always keep quiet
im sure you love me and roy alot
if its hard for you to express to
you dont have to and i dont expect to force you
i just am going to let you and mummy know
ILOVEBOTH OF you two ALOT
i could even give up my life
cuz im your daughter
ILOVEYOU
and i promise to be strong

after this camp i really learnt like alot
about self esteem too
_____ are usually lonely ppl
and no wonder i talk to marsions abt it before
CAME true EXAMPLE:
handsome boy and not that pretty girl
ok only me and marsions know this part....

and please i really got no time
to bother how people think already
in EVERY school there be a IN and OUT clique
and im not afraid to list names now
the geraldine alicia twins adeline cique
i did nothing to this people at all but....
okay i use to get out of their way
cuz i know they dont like me
they also dont like alot of people
but come to think of it my clique's bond
is so much stronger and
not comparing about cliques but characters
i will not ALLOW myself
to be upset over any of you guy's remarks or actions

and im gonna SERIOUSLY
have to stop wasting my own time
stop wanting to go out that much
in my head its very alienish
i think of things this way
EVERYONE'S OUT, I ENVY THEM
i imagine those ppl partying
and wishing i was there too
but too bad im a pathetic nobody at home
then i try to find ways to go out

i CANNOT think this way ANYMORE
cuz its stupid and childish
i have to study cuz im running out of time

and even though i dread for the day
that leroy say might come anytime
even though it cant be escaped from
but still i BEG everyone to cherish your parents
they WOULDNT last forever in your life
they may keep quiet and not voice out
but deeply they may not know how to express their love
LOVE THEM WITH ALL YOUR HEART PLEASE
(esp roy, pls)

and to all my friends
thanks for being there
each and everyone one of you
MAKES A DIFFERENCE
to me badly, i swear
(refering to school friends)
*too bad if you'r not a girl

and lastly a warning out there to others
when you MAKE michie cry
her being an alien
will suddenly BAM and
all the sad things of every memory
combine tgt to queue up to drip
so the tears drip drip drip
and its very hard to STOP her
think twice before mentioning the word: PARENT
or making her sad

LONG POST
cuz i thought so much
my eyes are swelling and hurts

AND I SHALL NOT CARE
IF THERE'S NO ONE I CAN TALK TO ONLINE
EVEN THOUGH MANY CONTACTS ARE ONLINE
CUZ I TELL MYSELF AND LEARNT IN CAMP

I CAN DO IT!
GOOOOOOO MICHIE

11:27 PM

Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine

(L) my babies
[domic, da ge]
[peiling, girlfriend]
[chester, best friend]
[lex, best boy-friend]
[Marsions, best ever]
[Michelle Ng, best friend]
[Eunice, twin]

i'll love you guys always, no matter what(:

9:13 PM

(CAUTION, LONG POST today)

hi im home(:
school sucks, full of workshops
went serene with clique
then bused to ho swee find chester
saw ex best buddy on bus
he didnt believe i was going out, wl :(
Domic bluff people one
went to catch him in shock
muahah, im a powerful sister

since they took leave to party dota
i purposely dont let
who are the one who said SO LOUD
"michie, dont worry, we WILL fetch you to sch
As long as we are free"
in the end all cannot wake up
give some crap excuse, im not 12 :S

went chester house slack
was watching tvee but fell aslp
sophie came, hehe mushy mushy with da ge
came home told mummy
school only ends at 9 tmr
then she nag then how come today so late oops :x

lex is so KEWT
he bought me a pink whistle
then he say if you see krazy ppl
just blow loudloud and seek for help
haha retarded but thanks(:

promise us lex
when you go overseas
dont ever lose contact
(L) you boy-fwen

spell NOEL(opposite) for MARSIONS

okay im damn bored

9:06 PM

9:34 PM

wl i hate school alot
holidays are never enough
if not i be out today also
pathetic day i lead
stayed home till dinner time

met chester for dinner
so coincidence his bro followed
and was wearing black polo and me pink
after that went tiong park
saw his brother fren
making out with this lian
(&$#&*^($&)#*#*^#*&
then walked home

i want to be happy :(

9:47 PM

i have a word for myself today
its PATHETIC
wow everyone suddenly the phone spoil right
and i was so helpless
i cried out of frustration downstairs my block
but my saviour andros picked up
went bugis to hang out with wendy kimmy eugene, cow

they went haji to shisha
being a good girl, didnt even wanna try
bought new wallet

maybe the situation now is a disguise
cuz i know if what i wanted today, happened
i wouldnt let it go easily
thats why, this way might be better
though im feeling very upset

almost everyone will bring the topic up
i explained again and again
i really wanna know when
WHEN will i have it

11:19 PM

im dripping cold
stupid chester call me
frigging tired but pulled myself out
mummy they all went out
im HOME ALONE again

but yay me im going out later
i want to drink
i want to have fun
i just wanna get out and fly about

i want my jacket back from nico
i need a new wallet

11:22 AM

wl im very sad
cuz my focus CRACKED
and my distractions that i fought
for 3 entire weeks
ATTACk me and i surrendered today

im wanting too much
of something i dont have
i envy those that have
i wonder how come i dont have

:(
i think everyone's going separate ways

first day of school today
sucked is the word

:(

seriously upset

9:23 PM

im very sad
i think i'll cry myself to sleep
cuz im saying goodbye
to the happy times now

dreading school

10:27 PM

time flies, its sch again tmr
meaning i wouldnt be online that much
and i restarted my blog
new year, new start

description of last night
very WILD and FUN
though witnessed fights
the ivan also very poor thing
the braces guy's kewt
and basil and his fren
sent me to the bus stop
will never forget the fun
met new people too:D

the guy who attacked my fren
i hope you check up often for aids(:

i didnt even touch any hmw
just when i wanted to be a good girl
i'm gonna meet my doom, whatever X)

sch starts = no more partying
:(

communication through text peeps
all the best for a new year (:

9:01 PM

im at my aunt's hse now

im wearing like a town girl

i feel like a poser

actually not im just wearing

what mummy bought and picked for me

today im more girly than ever

went town with relatives

saw andros brudder and co

saw brandon and basil co

:( no the braces guy didnt go :(

jumped about the arcade

cuz very happy to see so many ppl

i havent seen for awhile ((:

bought a fluffy wallet for myself

16 buckzx at taka ((: i like

yeah everyone's asking why dad go town wif me

i answered to pay for me, yea like real

then came aunt's house to bbq thing

i rmb last year's today or this period

i was happily over in love

today of this year im happily sulking

i frown smile sulk worry so much

i dont know why, most probably

im insane over the stress in sch

for once i burn midnight oil to study

first time study my head off for maths&chem

at times when there's ppl presence

i follow the atmosphere

but when nobody's there

hi henry, er you wanted your name here

meeting nico brudder tmr

8:48 PM
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